I'm tired

unlucky day, unlucky month, and yet it is just a beginning.
shall I be optimistic? or remain pessimistic.
It was a tough month; thought I had survived and yet came another unpredictable accident.
As if my life will never get better, as if I'm going to suffer for the rest of my life...
Haih, if only I could turn back the time.. if only if...

何か...

自分に問う…私が生きている意味って何でしょう？
自分自身の存在、誰にも気付かれず。
私は、ただチョイスですよ。
誰も選んでませんのチョイス。
悲しいみたい、でもそれは真実です。

Happy Mother's Day!!

Seems like everyone is posting on mother's day.... So I will just follow the trend.
This year Mother's Day will be slightly different with past few years, because my mom is having her second honey moon with my dad in Shanghai.. My mom's birthday falls on May; and we, the kids always combine her birthday celebration with Mother's day celebration. My mom never complains about this, and she always says that it's better for us to save the money. This is every mom's pattern; even though they want a celebration, still will think the best for their children. :)
Anyway, Happy Mother's Day to all mothers in the world especially my mom who is now in Shanghai with her beloved husband. XDDD

Home Alone

I'm.. tired..
Yes, getting a fight with parents is not fun and not cool. However, as long as they don't want forgive me; why should I?
This weekend, all my housemates and my colleagues back to their hometown. Home alone for this weekend. What's worries me more is the safety of Kulim. A lot of robbery and break in cases happen in this area.. Moreover, I'm gonna stay over here all by my own. Many of my friends advice me to back Penang. It's definitely not safe for a girl to stay in a house, near to cemetery.. Ghost is not an issue for me, but human instead. Cemetery is always quiet, and less people walk by. If something bad happen, no one gonna save me. A lot of reasons hold me back from staying here; but I'm insisted. One simple reason, I just don't want to face them if they're still in angry mode. For what I need face 2 angry faces for my fabulous Saturday and Sunday?
Gonna wish myself Happy Home Alone and yeahh, I'm going to rock my weekend with Big Bang songs!!!!

(>"<)

My luck is getting worse.. Screwed up my colleague's system, as a result made him OT these few days..
Unable to finish the task that I had planned for the sprint... And soon another big task will be assigned to me.
This is definitely not a good year for me, especially I'm the one who 犯太岁 this year.. I tried not to believe but compare with last year, my luck this year is not that good. Circling around the same issue, broke down my colleague system (basically i made the linux corrupted), and sometimes doing nothing but staring at the desktop.. Arrrggghhh...

brand new year with brand new wish

Changed a new template for my blog; since this is the beginning year of 2012. A refreshing one, so everyone will have a cheerful mind while reading my post.

It seems like a flash of light, a blink of eyes.And here comes the brand new year of 2012. 2011 is just like a dramatic year for me.  I can still remember the day where we still rushing assignments, final year projects, examinations, presentations, job interviews, start my first job after graduation, and last but not least is the graduation day. So many things happened within a year and I had experienced the huge transition in my life.

Working in a big multinational company was totally unexpected. I thought my first job would be something dealing more with local people. Things always work out opposite with our expectation. Besides dealing with local people; I also need to co-operate with US folks and Shanghai-ren. Despite of gaining knowledge of my programming skills, I have also enhanced my communication skills and improved my English as well. I'm glad that I had found such a great job, and work in this relaxing environment.

It's a brand new year, so I have a new list for myself.
1) work hard, play hard.
2) know more friends instead of having more foes.
3) Always in alert mode, never be a "big head prawn"
4) Impress my boss that I'm not just a newbie, but I'm definitely a hard working, dedicated and full with commitment employee.

last but not least..

5) Earn more money!!!! I want more money.. (>"<)|||

recent update

sorry for such a long wait.. well, I assume no one will read my blog anyway. Anyway, a short update on my recent news~ Hmm.. 23rd September 2011 was a memorable day as my sis had married to the guy she loves. Congraz to both of them..~

Guess where was I in the picture below. A make up look is totally different with the nerdy look I usually have. Yea~

and last but not least, I have officially graduated. Yeahh~

and guess where was I in the picture? *Hint: the shortes..*

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Next to go.. my birthday on this Friday and Penang bridge marathon on the 20th November... and of course, tones of works to be completed by end of the sprint.. Aza aza fighting.!!!

music sharing.. again~

So shameful of myself, as I had mistaken the show time of Mayday 3DNA movie. Indeed, Big Cinema in Kulim doesn't show this movie.. (ノ◇≦。)

So, I came back home earlier than I thought and I start youtube and facebook as usual.  I just came by this song recently and I quite like it. The name is "The Ballad of Mona Lisa" by Panic! At the Disco and this video is their acoustic version of the song.

One thing I like about the concert/music sharing held in western countries is there's no crazy fans screaming or yelling... This is called as respect to the singer.. and yeah, I can listen to his voice so clearly in this video!  :)

drop in the ocean

Let me intro a very nice song by a not so famous singer in US.. Ron Pope.

I accidentally found out his songs in youtube and get attracted by his unique voice in the song "A Drop in the Ocean".. So, I dropped him a message in his page and unbelievable he actually replied that!!! Wooohooo.. so happy!! This has made my day~~

Enjoy his song~

Yeeeppy~

Woohoo.. Finally get my Haagen-Dazs voucher from my company. Thanks for the recognition from my colleague. I never knew helping colleague in getting his job done can get free voucher. Maybe this is normal for others, but this is my first time; and I'm so proud of it. :)

OAOA

OAOA是嬰兒的啼哭，是摩天輪的樣子，是太陽與山脈的形狀，是對著空谷的吶喊，
是沒有語言的希望，是在風裡面寫下此刻自己的呼喊......。

你的OAOA和我不同，但我們還是可以唱同一首OAOA。

「現在就是永遠。」

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OAOA (現在就是永遠)

我相信 苦澀的 眼淚
我不信 甜美的 誓言
我相信 音樂就該 音樂

我相信 愛情的 純粹
我不信 華麗的 詩篇
我相信 熱烈的 爭辯
我不信 無聲的 和諧

我相信 秒秒的 瞬間
我不信 年年的 永遠
我相信 搖滾就能萬歲

快張開你的嘴OAOA
再不管你是誰OAOA
人生都太短暫
別想 別怕 別後退
現 在 就 是 永 遠

出生的那一年OAOA
轉眼就這一天OAOA
人生都太短暫
去瘋 去愛 去浪費
和我 再唱 OA OAOA

O A O A
O A O A

Credit to 阿信's blog

recent update

It's been a long time after the last chat with Duing, and found out I had been a month didn't update my blog.

Nothing special happen.. I had worked for 4 months. Time flies.

Recently I spammed a so called himself as Gen-Z (who is actually a Gen-X) the songs I like. He often addresses me as a Gen-Y (who born in year 1980~1989).

Seems like he's kind of addicted to a song cover sang by Sam Tsui and Christina Grimme (Just a Dream by Nelly).

Thanks to Duing intro me this nice Korean song.

I'm not into boys group, but this is really nice one.

live as if this is the last day of your life.

Hmm..

While reading through Mao's blog, I saw the picture he has posted for quite long ago.

Then I realized, I have a similar shirt and have no idea how to match it. Why don't I wear a vest so that it won't look so dull?

After I have started working, I seldom notice on fashion or dressing style. I have been cracking head for this streak pattern shirt because it makes me look fat!!! Thanks to Mao, problem solved. (^ ^)v

盆踊り

First time joined this Bon Odori event. First time meet my "long time" facebook friend there. First time... :)

Rolling in The Deep

Untitled 7/11

709, a day to remember, where we, Malaysians fought for a fair election.

Honestly, I had done nothing during that day, except changed my profile pic into yellow and watched the videos posted by my friends. In these videos, I saw how police treated on the unarmed citizens, brutally hit them and shoot tear gas into hospital. How sad our government denied what they have done and lied about the number of people who had participated.

Next story I'm going to share is the quarterly event held by my team today. I felt so glad that after I joined this company, I had chance to eat seafood buffet in a 5 stars hotel; and today, just had my lunch in TGI friday and free 3D movie- Transformer. Oh yea, before the lunch, we also had a free durian breakfast in Balik Pulau. My colleagues claimed that they hadn't eat any seafood buffet or TGI friday before I joined the team. How lucky I am. No wonder I gained 2kg after I started work... Arrgghh...

Hmm.. I like this song..

"Let your heart sing and tonight, we light up the stars,

All that you are."

NS gathering

NS Gathering.

It has been 5 years since we first met in Kem Tasoh, Perlis. Everyone has changed, and I barely recognized the most of them except Peiyong. It's good to know you guys again!!!

Unofficially Graduated

It's the end of the last chapter in my university life. Next week, I gonna start another new chapter of a new story of my life. While enjoying my remaining holidays in Penang, I have to start revising on C and C++ languages. This is due to the interview with my future boss, I kinda lied that I'm good in these 2 languages; indeed, I'm not. Reading back those "Classes", "Friendship and Inheritance" and "Polymorphism" are making myself suffocated. Not to mention about "Pointer" and "Link List" which used to be my nightmare during Beta year. My future boss will gonna hate me if I need him to become my tutor, so I must make sure this won't happen.

You know, when you think, "nehh.. I won't become a software engineer because I damn hate programming..", God will arrange you with this job. It happens on me. I dislike programming the most during my university life, where I can only obtained a B or B-. So what do I ended up with? *Sigh* I'm gonna learn extra hard and OT often to get my job done.

Next week, nightmare begin!!

无题

古人说，

百忍成金。

我都忍了这么久了，怎么一个金币都看不到？ （哭泣）